I guess I’ve known that my computer was sick for a while — it’s been acting listless and sluggish. But I finally took its temperature, so to speak, and now that I know just how sick it really is, I’m finding it really hard to convince myself to do any “work” on it. Like I’m somehow, irrationally, wanting to give it a rest or something.

I did send a dreaded “checking up on my mss” email out though. The frisson of unease those give me is only slightly more rational than my desire to give my computer a “rest”. The odds are fairly high that I won’t like the answer I get, (“We’ve lost your manuscript, and you’ve waited all this time for nothing” being the most common response), but not asking doesn’t miraculously make the mss’ status any different… it just prevents me from doing anything about it.